Papa and I were so close when I was young. I admired him so much for pretty much everything. When I was in second grade, he and I started to become oil and water. We never clicked like we used too. He lost his job to a very extreme case of gout. Our family seems to be so afflicted with rapid increase in uric acid causing our joints to inflame badly. So with all his joints inflamed including every little joint, Papa came home defeated and probably depressed.
Mama is a public librarian. She has a meager salary and ended up with so many loans just to get us through. I used to complain so much of our life and as well as Papa’s lack of determination to help us. I was astounded by the fact that he spent his days angry, moody and simply sits on the chair day by day. I never understood it as a young child and was still full of pride when I became a young adult. And as stupid as I was, I did only come to realize that Papa was clinically depressed on his deathbed.
Clinical depression is condition characterized by symptoms categorized by Diagnostic Statistical Manual of Mental Disorder. It is a serious condition that may lead to suicide but it is treatable if the patient is willing to undergo medications and therapy treatments.
In our country where going to a therapist has it social stigma, awareness for such disorder remains a little bit behind bars. Social awareness is a must not just for clinical depression but all other psychiatric disorders because our society plays a big role with the probable development and worsening of condition that has high mortality rate. Going to a therapist is not to be shamed of, it has to be addressed before it worsens.
Support from the family is another big thing. My Papa would have been a little better if I had made it a little easier for him. I was to consumed with anger. Luckily despite everything Papa has my mom and my other siblings. Me I was just angry probably depressed too.
I urge everyone to be aware of your family, friends and other acquaintances. They might be going through something. A little encouragement, a smile or a little act of kindness would make a whole lot difference for someone.